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[Nov. 17th, 2009|10:00 pm] |
"Seandainya, kau ada disini denganku.
Mungkin ku tak sendiri.
Bayanganmu, yang selalu menemaniku,
Hiasi malam sepiku.
Ku ingin bersama dirimu.
Ku tak akan pernah, berpaling darimu.
Walau kini, kau jauh dariku.
Kan selalu ku nanti kerna, ku sayang kamu."
Miss you,
Ailaiman ♥ Imanaila.
(:
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[Nov. 10th, 2009|11:29 am] |
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Stick your hands inside of my pockets.
Keep them warm while I'm still here. |
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[Nov. 6th, 2009|11:58 am] |
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Pudarkah sudah cinta yang ku beri? |
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[Oct. 20th, 2009|12:54 am] |
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"It's killing me, it's killing you. Both of us trying to be strong." |
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| That's my boy. |
[Oct. 11th, 2009|08:14 pm] |
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So far with you, every dream comes true <333
I looooooooove you Irman!
Happy advance 17th in 3 days! (((: |
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| My hot and cold dear boypren. |
[Oct. 4th, 2009|04:33 pm] |
I: "Dear, dorg kasi kua sia today."
D: :O :O :O "OMG, SERIOUS?! I nak jumpe...boleh?"
I: "Of cos lah!"
Omggggg, I hope his family don't hate me cos I take every second of their son's free time! Haha(:
Well, cos Irman EVENTUALLY met my parents and relatives for 'jalan raya'. I can't believe dad agreed to fetch him at his place! :D And... only for the second time, his parents sent me home at late night after going to his sis's place for raya (:
Our parents met. Awwwwwwwwwww (:
I love you baby, despite abusing yourself yesterday and calling your own gf _____. I told you don't do stupid things. Please please PLEASE! Learn from your mistakes. |
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[Sep. 21st, 2009|10:09 am] |
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Never a lip is curved with pain
That can't be kissed into smile again. |
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| I feel loved, so loved... |
[Sep. 20th, 2009|08:52 am] |
Girl, i'm missing you already.
But if we're to think back, we just met last night.
Like hello? Last night. Mek. Hehee. And i don't want
to talk what happened at 'night' kaay. MUUUUUACKS! (:
I didn't know all the last bus is b4 0000hrs. Its
alright okay b, whats important is i get to see you
much longer, even though its what, 10 or 20mins longer?
I felt REAL bad for breaking fast wit me on the last day
of puasa when your mum insisted that you break fast at
home. Even i never break fast w/o family before on the
last day b. Ok told you that i'm cleaning my rumah, but
you heard it, my room-ah! How great. Shows that you haven't
been digging your own gold for days. Kay merepek ah!
Well.... we met at bugis at bout hmmm close to 6.30pm yesterday.
Syg, broke atau break fast eh b? Kay takpa, we buka at pastamania
which dela has been craving for who knows when. Fish&co e next time
alright huns. And oh, wasn't expecting her to wait of me at the
traffic light? Macam surprised lah! REALLY WANTED TO HUG UPON MEETING
but i was perspiring by then. Alah! Uh ouh, i walked from beach rd,
got myself an army bag. Ok ok shh. So was jalan-jalan in circles b4
going ptmna(short-form. LOL!). We really really talk our hearts out.
Some even cried, eleh! Whatever it is, i felt good after that b. (:
Then, we head to the Land of the Mat Yoyo, Geylang Serai. Hah! Ouh oh,
i baru teringat that this is the first time i go geylang with my gf during
ramadhan. Kay info tak perlu. Kita gi cari boy brooch kan syg? Bought
dengdeng cause my mummy wants some of it. It rained lah but we prefer
OUTDOORS kan b? Hahaha! Regret sia masok. I mean enter the tempat jualan,
it jammed. I was like ok bila nak jalan. Hahha. And while walking, syg
iman being gatal ehhh! Gigiiiit baru tahu. Alah cakap ajer. (:
Pastu kita buat apa eh yg? Oh k, Kita lepak pat pasar then this is where
the photo(look up) is taken. Alalala. Pastu send this 'kecik' home. Omg i
teringat sia my kakak say, "eh si kecik ni" when she came my house to salam.
Hahaha cute lah. That time, it was on the eve of our 16th monthsary. Okay,
happy belated 16th Monthsary to Dela and I. Yay(: Heex. So she 'turun' Jurong
to clarify some things with me and Sarah :O Shocking, I know. But I had to
clean my place first before meeting Sarah so we ended up not meeting her lor.
We talked otp instead, the 3 of us.
Dela said, "I let it all go since the 2 of them admitted everything happened
in the past. Ahhh jialat ah, fuck it lah k. Tsk. Forgive but won't forget. lolll.
Whatever lah alright. Haiya! So buka time was getting nearer by the minute. Luckily
we settled those things already. Irman had to go back up to buka while i waited
at his void deck. Little did i know his parents invited me up for buka. LOL. F*
paiseh i tell you. K best."
Yes, she had dinner at my house, with my mum and dad. I can't believe it too. Mum
straightaway asked her up when i told her that i was with you at the void deck.
Soon after, bro-in-law, sis, dzaqy and zaqya came. Like everyone's home and i really
feel complete at that point of time. This is what i want. Allah, please let my dream
come true. Amin. Omg topic lari panjang sey! (:
OKAY, back to where we were. Upon reaching her place, settled down the had some of the
dengdengkedengdeng. Lol. And also had J.Co's donuts. Picture reference Fig 1.2 as below.
Then... after that.. we had our own fun. (: Muuuuuuuuuuuuuax!
Fig 1.2 (lol)
I regret for what i've done. And whenever i think of it, i felt lowly of myself. I
really don't know what happened to me. I promise you that i'll always shower you with
the love that you deserve. And about the coward beast, we'll slowly let it go alright
baby? I love you, for who you are, for how you treat me even this happens, and for how
you love me in each and every way w/o even get mad at the small and lil things. I regret
what i've done. To make up everything, i'll make sure that every moment you spend with
me now is worthwhile. You'll definitely get the taste of Heaven on Earth baby.
xoxo,
iman kindergarten.
i love&miss you heaps.
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| Nice Date, Boring Dayyy -.- |
[Sep. 9th, 2009|01:29 pm] |
Updates? I met Gfs.  I met classmates. I met nad^^ and friends. I met my family and cousins. I met Bf.  That's all I wanna see. See ya when I see ya. |
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| He turns 20 today. |
[Aug. 23rd, 2009|08:38 am] |
Dear Birthday Boy,
Happy turning 20 today. Though I've spilled out those words, I wish you booked out Friday/yesterday. I can't hold on any longer. You said you'll be in there for 2 or 3 weeks. The last time I hear your voice was on Wednesday. I left messages, good & bad. I find things up your sleeves that you deny/don't really care. Dyou actually think I'd believe you this time round? I don't need your explanation now. Not through text, not through phonecalls. I'm not even convinced when you admit the "truth", not a single bit. Cos I still have evidence until now. Now you tell me what's going on. Nobody knows how I feel inside when I found out bout those things k :'(
I feel pathetic. I didn't have time to save my money up for you to buy something for your birthday, though you're inside. Or did I do it on purpose and ignored your birthday? I'm confused. Should I still give a damn to you after those shits I've found out? Well you may think I'm an ungrateful girlfriend cos I didn't wish you sincerely with long speeches through text on your birthday. In fact, I composed only 2 lines. "Happy 20th Birthday, lovely. Take care of yourself." And it's not even at midnight sharp, it was at 3.45am. Sometimes I wonder, I could stay up till midnight to wish my friends on their specials days at midnight sharp. Am I really that ungrateful towards you?
Come to think of it, I don't think so. Compare to how much I've poured my feelings towards you. Yes, I'd be lying if I say I never flirt with other guys. Woo. But, i know my limits. Some were really good friends I know 'em before you, but because of you, we're not that close anymore. Whether it's my request, or you did something to let them have a bad impression towards you. You said "who cares sia?! They're flirting with my girlfrind okay!!" Now it's my turn. I do, have guys "wooing" on me. But, what did I do? I simply ignored. Some bastards even have the cheeks to tell me "you break ngan guy you sudah. Then gi ngan i (:" I remembered i "hahahaha." to him. Then I said i gotta go. Well, more than that. I blocked and delete. Yay I'm a winner! -____-" C'mon, I know I've got you. Though I'm only 17. I still think I could survive maturity and love life. Unlike... K never mind^^
Like I said, eventhough I quarrel alottttt with you, I'm still the most happiest girl in the universe the moment I see you right infront of my eyes. I swear. How incredible? No, I have always felt that way before. Be it with K or A or S (or any of my countless exes you could think of -.-") but when I said I moved on, I really mean it. Now they're either a good friend, a hi-bye friend, or even a stranger that I wished I've never met before. Cool much? I don't need a rebound when you don't treat me the way I want it to be. I have my ways. Unlike... K never mind. HAHAHA k shut up.
So yeah I felt a relieve after jotting my thoughts here. This leaves a feeling that I shouldn't avoid myself to you. Or should I(when I think of YOUR pathetic past. To have an ex-gf who blew her chance away and then, messing up with our relationship?)? Oh well, I'm not over her, not a single bit. The fact that I know I'm as ______ as her and perhaps, she should believe in karma and retribution. We should watch out. Doesn't matter if she celebrated your birthday 2 years ago with your family as a surprise. But I still get invitation from your mum for a meeting cum dinner before you enlisted. :P
Fine, fine I'll stop here. I can talk bout this for hours if you don't stop me. But I got better things to do rather than pondering on this, right? Yes. Okay, Irman, it's totally up to you. To continue with circumstances or let it go without regrets. You turned 20 and (hopefully, my boy) can think maturely and make the right decisions. I'll respect.
But, choose it and see me.
But you said you love me and gonna cling on to me no matter what. Which should you choose now? =/
I hope you're fasting and eating well (at the right time eh) (:
However I appreciate everything you've done to and given me. I mean, the nice ones la. Heh!
See, I can be nice. I care. I miss&love you alot, xoxoxo :'( |
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[Aug. 22nd, 2009|03:21 pm] |
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 Mt results. OBFU. (Click to zoom. Pandai2 k) I'm gladgladgladgladglad some people understand me. Phew. And as much as I know, she's damn right bout that post to me. Cos she's experiencing it too. But worse. :( I hope you're alright now Nad. <3
I gotta go.
Happy advance 20th, Irman.
Whether we're on or off, up or down, whatever it is, still.
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| What, movie again!? |
[Aug. 20th, 2009|07:52 pm] |
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So let's see what's going on so far. The last movie was Where Got Ghost? on Monday with Chervon slash Rachel slash Lee. Lol! Yesterday upon receiving MT O levels results, I erk... Expected that grade. But it's fucking disappointing lah. Soon after i can't hold back my tears any longer. I crieddd... Then the Principal saw and comforted me. Hais... Never get that grade in exams before. Somemore its freaking O level lah fuck! I had to smoke so i chilled with Aidil and Bradley. Hais. K manyyy people get my grade when they know they don't deserve it. Damn! I carried on with our plan. Watch movie that is. Haha relief stress lah...-.- we watched the Orphan. Rani, Chervon, Aidil and me. Fun lah. Cool.
Todayyy. I need more time to finish maths test unfortunately. So yeah, fail liao fail liao......! And f* dnt lah! Fucking stress i tell you! Well the orphan was damn psychotic sia! Go watch! I wanna watch final destination in 3D and time traveller's wife lah): lets see how my savings fair for the days to come . Lol! I gotta do dnt and maths now. Laters~ till you hear from me again. |
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[Aug. 18th, 2009|12:51 am] |
I can't sleep now, so i decided to come down here and...rant bout my day. It was terribly terrible in the morning as I was searching for panadol and no one has it-.-" So i wanted to go home and rest. But i know i don't want to trouble mum or dad or anybody else, i decided to cab home.
Hold hold hold on, that's what i thought i could do. But i can't! They bloody need a parent to come down and fetch me home. Hallo i'm not 7 k, everyday i reach home safely. Cb. Forgeddit, i went to sick bay till 10. I'm so sad, irman knows whyyyyyyyyy))))))': k since you wanna know i'll let you know also k. Lol. I can't send him back for booking in. Damn sad sia D":
The rest of the day i just bare it through. Like hell i tell you. And i went to dnt after school, halfway. Lol. Aidil, Chervon and I went for a smoke. No no, Chervon's not one of us. She's just kaypo. Lol. And i wanted to watch Orphan asap, but we ended up watching Where Got Ghost? instead cos of the timings la. I wasn't scared sia. But at one point of time i shouted cos i was shocked. And Chervon was like "don't shout la you bitch!" damn, sorry man! Woman... Whatever-.-" lawllll.
I reached home before 8. I got headache eversince. Took medicine and rest. I can't sleep, so I waited for Irman's call. But when i finally can get my eyes to shut at 11, irman called me minutes later-_- greattt. Now i can't sleep, i can't breathe properly sia, idk why. And I'm feeling nervous and worried too, WHYYYYY))': okay, i cried alot too today. Boohoo...
I'm gonna miss this shortaye~ like tits sia. Won't be seeing him for weeks now, just waiting as the day goes by everytime. Cheh! Yeahyeah, don't forget to pay your 'puasa' hor! I have to pay back only 1 day, i thank god sia^^
Anyhoos, Happy 17th & 16th birthday to Mamat and Aidil suntek respectively((: that's all for now. G'night.
Imyilyirman): xoxo |
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| NDP 09/15th Monthsary, with Love. |
[Aug. 17th, 2009|12:07 am] |
So Friday was our 15th Monthsary. Dad surprised me with a 'better-than-the-one-I-was-using handphone when I got home. I was like "OH...MY...GAWD....(damn low pitch)... THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!(damn highhhhh pitch!)" Hahah! I didn't concentrate much in school ): Cos I was waiting for the time to get home and see this botak lah! Can't wait yknow! ((:
Met him at his void deck. I ran and hugged him like hellllllllllll! (Cheh sweet seh...-.-) Hahak! Then proceed to Jurong Point to watch UP 3D(initially) but due to some inconvenience, we watched G.I. Joe instead. Who cares, its Channing Tatum bebeh! ;D
That was Friday the 14th. We just watched UP 3D (none other than my request, obviously) yesterday. HAHA! Poor Irman had to attend don't-know-what marathon since the previous night and didn't get his sleep, at all. He went to meet me straight. Awwwww ): He bought LOADS of cookies when we had Subs for our early dinner. Cookie monster-.-" And muched it during the show, eventually he fell asleep holding my hand, still. HAHAHA!! So cute. Bleargh~   Thanks A LOTLOTLOTLOTLOTLOTLOTLOTLOTLOTLOTLOTLOTLOTLOTLOTLOTLOTLOTLOTLOTLOTLOTLOTLOTLOTLOTLOTLOTLOTLOTLOTLOT
babylove, for
-tagging along to Farah's chalet
-buying things that I want
-eating at the place I crave for
-cab ride(s) home.
-safcifising your sleeping time to meet me -the billions (or more) hugs and kisses -sweet conversations Kay, I can't list all down now. I need more time to recall. LOL.
I know you know k? Hehe. 8 years.
You love me (:
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| HOW WAS YOUR WEEKEND? |
[Aug. 11th, 2009|05:38 pm] |
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8/8/09: Farah's chalet turned out greatttt! What more could you ask for when you have your lovely girlsss and babylove together by your side on a lovely night? :D Thanks for the cab ride home at 3 in the morning b!((: lollll.
9/8/09: National day with love. Oh i got my belated presents! Nyeheheh^^
10/8/09: Great day with my guardsman before he booked in. Thanks for everything loveliesss<3
Zomg all 3 days with irman still not enough ah? Haa.
Weekend went fabulously smooth, as planned.
Pictures will be up soon aite ;D
Stay tuned stalkaaaaaaas! Hahahahaxzxzxzx(susususu) inside joke. Lalala~
k i sound gay. Bi!sexual!-.-"
Note: i really sound gay here. I'm sure everyone (or most people) had a blasting weekend. Were you asked out by a wrong person? Lol.
Nah, sapa makan cili terasa pedas k? Awwwwww... (; |
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